... Lost in thought and lost in time While the seeds of life and the seeds of change were planted Outside the rain fell dark and slow While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime
I took a heavenly ride through our silence I knew the moment had arrived For killing the past and coming back to life...
Every opportunity has its own price tag; a cost that you got to bear. The tyranny of 'OR' as they say, exists everywhere. A continuous and relentless decision making, that eventually leads to nothing but a thing gained, and a world lost. But I think, this whole notion of opportunity and its cost, is severely flawed. And if ratified like any other management concepts, it can have some defining implications on our lives.
Living life of a fresh graduate is interesting. Stunned identities, hitch-hiking across multiple corridors of life. Many choices to be made. Many decisions to be taken. A chaos that surrounds me for now numbs up my mind sometimes. Like an explosion followed by some deafening silence. But living in this state for past few weeks has undoubtedly enriched my life [in totality]. Clarifying a lot things. Yes, I'm in chaos but am not confused. Yes, I got to make my choices and take my decisions, but I am not really bearing any costs. May be am just putting everything I have to wrap hands around my life and let nothing go.
Used to think that work-life is tough, busy. Amazingly spending more time with friends these days. And quality of time spent is linear to the quantity of moments cherished. Used to think pragmatism might overwhelm ideals. Thankfully, my first venture kicks off this month. And yet am an employee of some giant org. Satisfies both. My needs and wants. An idea which I think have struck me at the very right time.
I'm not yet ready to pay any costs. Would just go on availing whatever I have, and maximizing whatever I get. I would never glorify imperfections. Let see what life brings on.
"Makers are Men, Creators are Leaders... be careful what kinda leaders you're producing here..."
Can you identify with this line? Its from the classic 'The Scent of a Woman'. Al Pacino. In fact all that he speaks for in that ultimate portion, for around two and a half minutes can well be set as a benchmark to define partially misunderstood and partially neglected concept of leadership. A notion that is so decisive, a notion that is so humane.
Integrity, courage, compassion. Shouldn't this define a true leader? A character that stands dignified under pressure? Or someone crumbling with the burden of self? Someone taking trivial and insignificant pieces of his ragged life too seriously? Someone has to think beyond loss gain and everything between the two. Someone has to go beyond black white and gray. And millions and billions and zeroes. Someone.
When things get tougher, when the light's on you... just don't run away. Let this very spirit, take decisions.
A lot of things coming to my mind tonight, as I begin to write my second post in nearly five months. Yeah been quiet I know, but tonight its like home coming. Bits and pieces all gelling together entailing no effort from my side. It happens you know, when things appearing from different dimensions begin to harmonize each other. Defining each other. Completing each other at crucial junctures. It's worth exploring; the synchronization that resides within us is the synchronization that surrounds us as well. This sense of balance is undoubtedly what makes our world so beautiful. Each fragment, in right proportion. A masterpiece.
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While reading Maulana Rumi today, I came to understand something about Mr. Jinnah. Something inherently important about this enigmatic man. Something that had puzzled me since I started to read about him. About his personal life beyond being the Quaid. And his relationship with Ruttie his wife, and Dina.
Tonight as my city burns, I'm here with these two gentlemen, complementing each other so beautifully.
I m not disentangling/entangling any further. At least tonight.